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2009-12-11T00:16:00.002+08:00

The more i think, the more i think it should be right.
I should die.
Life is useless nw.

I feel like

- i want to smoke.

- i want to drink.

- i want to go out & ton until midnight.

- i want to cut waist.

- i want to jump down buliding.

All i want is jus to be happy wif my fwen & myself.

Im jus a replacement & a toy.
Replacement of rosie from wc.
A toy from b.

There is nothing im good at.
There is nothing i can do.

Perhaps i still throw away my com, del audi.
Sit down in my room, emo & cry.

ihatemyself.

I guess im jus wad you all think :

A Lousy & Useless Person.

2009-12-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

Went to athirah house today to finish the Camp challenge flag.
Was late for 30 min. Lol.
Cos busy using com pei cowyy play audi.
Den do the flag until overtime.
But have to finish it.
So sms rajan & nina say want to cancel today working.
Aft tat went to west coast plaza.
Going to take bus go back interchange.
I fall down ! LOL.
Cos was thinking somethings.
I jus stand up & continue to walk.
Cos i didnt feel any pain at all.
Cos my heart is numb & dead.
Went to find my father den had dinner & go home tgt.

Went home, use fone call call call.
Den go bath.
Aft tat, alone go out to buy ziplock bag, raincoat & black colour hairband.
Cos tmr camp need.
In the end, walk from one place to another.
Went to mac,
Bought Mcflurry & Hot Fudge Sundae for my parents.
Den went home.
Went home, pack my stuff while call call call again.
Den sew my badges onto my GG uniform.
Tats all for today. :D

Why did you shake ur head when you saw me ?
You whr bs sia.
I got did anything wrong to you meh ?
Why must you ignore me & bs me ?
You tell me larh. x.x

It is jus nothing nw. (:

2009-12-09T18:47:00.002+08:00

I wonder how much will i get for my pay.
LOL.
Cos this 2 weeks busy like shyt. x.x

6 - 7 dec : Sh Chalet + Overnight.
8 dec : CCA from 9 - 6.
9 - 10 dec : Working.
11 - 14 dec : Camp Challenge @ GG Camp Christine.

I think my pay should be lesser den $100 barh.

Today,
Bring $27 go out.
Left $2.70.
LOL !
Cos buy 10k a-cash.
And treat stella food & drink.
Bought Oreo Mcflurry home,
Make by SWEETHEART ! ♥

Sh chalet was like super fun.
Cos met Fion, Lor Mee & Adam.
At night, ton oso.
Go cube,
Saw xiiaojun, xiiaospade, xiiaoredz & more.
But fyi, jus tok to xiiaojun only.

Called him jus nw.
I tok like very relax larh.
He tok to me on fone nw is like he dun want to tok like tat.
Cos is he did wrong to me,
Not i did wrong to him.
Regretted, haha.
Maybe i should not stead wif him in the first place.
Or we still be fwens nw.

Actually, wanted to tell tat girl he is my stead too.
But i think i should not.
Cos since im going to break wif him.
I dun want him to lose 2 person at the same time.
In the end i dun have say.

Working kills my pain !

Camping kills my pain too !

Im tired.

2009-12-04T22:18:00.001+08:00

Hais,
I dunno why so many ppl wants me.
I dun want.
I jus only want tat person to love me jiu hao le.

Cried today.
Because of my mother's sad story.
If i tell you nw,
I guess you will oso cry.

Baby,
I miss you lots.
Although today is jus ur camp first day.
I really dunno wad im thinking abt nw.
Im really damn tired nw.
Freaking tired.

Im happy to have you, B.
I really love you lots.
I hope you love me lots too. :x

Anw,

Happy Habbo 3rd Year ! ;hoho

My day ~

2009-11-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

Busy working.
Was sad for the last 3 days.
Hais. But nw,
Everything is ok le. :D
I hope it will not happen again. *Prays*

DK DK DK.
Hashbrown hashbrown hashbrown.
So lucky i didnt do runner again.
Super stress & tired.
Even worse if Sherry th manager is there. ._.

Ytd, went to walk the WHOLE imm's 1st floor.
Looking for the stupid teenage.
So long still havent come.
ROAR !

So today,
Woke up super late at 715.
Rush to sch cos meeting Ellie, Jiayi & Stella at 730. ._.
Reach sch at 815. ROAR !
Discuss about the Environment Event Competition for West Division Day.
Going to make a wallet by using recycle materials.

But alot of materials needed to finish the whole wallet.
Duration for the competition is only 1.5 hours. So short siol. x.x

Den at 830,
Fall in. And stand until abt 835.
Aft tat, continue discuss our competition.
Den at abt 945, fall in again.
Den stand at the stupid hot sun for 15 minutes.
Feeling like fainting, OMG.
Stand until leg pain. x.x
Cos during work, i only can stand cant sit. ):
Aft tat, excos brief us on girlguide camp next monday.
I cfm will miss you alot de. D:
The camp is totally not interesting & fun like tat.
They say the camp is a TRAINING-CAMP. -'-

Den do punishment, sing TAPS.
And zhao. :D
Walk back to canteen whr to put our bags.
Walk until half, leg is like jelly liao.
Den waited for 1 hours for gwen.
Cos she go find Mrs Loh for the camp challange thingy.
Wait until 12.
Den go Jurong Point, tgt wif Gwen, Ellie & Jiayi.
Went to eat Pizza hut. :D
Den go popular walkwalk.
Den baby ask me to call him.
Jiu call and tok to him.
Den cos outgoing call going to bomb.
So ask him use his housefone call me.
Tok all the way until i go home.
Den reach home still toking & toking & toking.
Ended my day like tat. :D

Fotos at Pizza Hut (Fotos Not In Order) :

2009-11-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

I have plan to blog 3 post a day.
Cos i busy working like shyt nwadays until i bo time to use com.

Thursday :
Thanks to ellie's father for sending me to sch.
Cos i woke up late. LOL.
Went sch & study for Math Mastery Test.
Den aft tat went to orchard to walkwalk tgt wif ellie & gwen.
Went to ion, taka, iSetan & alot of place.
Den chunni send gwen say have to go sengkang for anti-drug course tmr.
Wtfhzx lorh. Diao.
Den went home. :D

Friday :
Wake up at 545. Late like shyt.
Den rush to control station to find ellie & gwen.
Reach there abt 610.
Went up to our lao di fang.
Den saw stella.
Jiayi sms whr us.
She was at the red line. LOL.
Take 1 hr to go compass point which is at sengkang.
Reach there at abt 7.
Damn early.
Den go mac eat breakfast.
I cut myself until idk.
My right hand. Bleeding somemore.
Gwen they all ask why i dun feel pain.
My ans is jus cos my heart is pain.
Den 8 go meet chunni they all.
Den go from the course from 8 - 3.
So long ! @#!@#!@#!
Baby come sengkang for injection at afternoon.
I want to meet him.
But he dun let me. ):
He good lorh. ):
Waste my 1 hr time looking for him. ):
My lunch time fly away.
I dun care le.
I dun want to meet him anymore.
Cos i shy. LOL.
Den take mrt tgt wif stella, jiayi, ellie, gwen.
Emo like shyt. D:
Saw Qin LaoShi on mrt.
Say hi & bye to her.
LOLOLOL !
Went going back home, saw leslie.
He good.
Jus walk past me.
Dun want say hi to me.
Rmb tat !

Friday :
Woke up late for work.
Wake up at 807. Wtfhzx lorh !
Den rush.
Report at 850.
Saw nina there liao.
Sitting down, sms-ing kw.
Den 9 sharp, punch card.
Sherry ask me to do runner.
Do until i tired like shyt. ):
Stress & busy lorh. T.T
Aft working,
Wait until 530 in order for me to see SU NYI !
Im so happy to see him lorh.
Although he forget me liao.
But he slowly rmb.
He was late for work, thanks to me !
Muhahaha !

Call baby when on the way home.
He very headache.
Same as me nw. x.x
Cos we everyday tok on fone for 1 hours+.
So listening on hp will have headache,
As it damage ur brain cells.
Im sry, baby.
I should not call you tat much. ):
Hai you shou ku le.
Rmb to see doc k ?
iloveyou. :D

2009-11-11T11:11:00.001+08:00

Hi.
Rdm post.

11/11/o9 11.11am !

2009-11-10T10:57:00.000+08:00

Heart getting tired & more tired.
Which i dunno why.

Too busy working this few days.
Doing DK DK & DK.
Stress & Busy.
Tired like hell.
Want to sleep more, cant sleep.
LOL. :x

Im sry, B.
For ytd, my fwens rudeness to you.
I apologize for them.

I dunno why,
But i think we are getting further & further. ):
I really cant live w/o you.
I really need you.
I guess if you really leave me.
I will cry.

Waiting for 11/11/o9 11.11 am & pm !

Work Work Work.

2009-11-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

I wonder why Ellie ask me tat qns.
So random lorh.

Playing facebook nw.
So cool !
LOL !

I wonder why baby must go until plaza sing, vivo, AMK Hub to find jobs.
Cant find at West Mall, Lot 1 or Yew Tee Square de meh ?
His answer confirm is work at those place can earn more money.
LOL ! X.X

Woke up late today.
Woke up at 8.15. x.x
Busy Die Me.
Cos i work at 9.
Den rush here rush there.
Reach Mac at 850.
Late for 5 min.
Cos crew have to be there 15 mins earlier to prepare.

Reach there jiu busy wif cooking & packing hashbrown.
Aft tat go to throw litter for 4 times.
OMG, GAD you know. x.x
Maybe macdonald should gimme an award.
The award should be The Most Visit To Throw Litter.
LOL. Hahas.
Come back den busy washing & cleaning trays.
Si rajan tell me tat aft i wash & clean finish all the tray den let me go DK.
Is like one whole stack of trays for me to wash & clean.
Wtfhzx !
I wait & wait.
Wait until 12.30 den go do DK.
I was like very blur today.
Cos need change, i go key in exact cash.
Wtfhzx lorh.
Lucky bo senior see.
Or i mati eat curry liao.
Time to go off.
I still dun want to go off.
LOL ! I like DK alot man !
Den go punch card.
Eat liao den go LJS tgt wif Stella.
In order to see shihui & leslie. :D
Bought garden salad & coke from shihui.
I waited for her Q very long siol.
While eating, Stella told me her secret. :B
An untold secret. :D
Waited abt 10 mins. x.x
Den when going off, say bye to leslie.
He like bo reaction.
I angry den say bye again.
He wave & say bye to me.
LOL ! :D
Aft tat go aries to buy somethings.
Walk around the whole lvl 1 of IMM.
Im soon going to get bored wif IMM. x.x
Den go Mos Burger buy Corn soup.
Jiu go home liao. :D

My hand damn pain nw.
Pain since ytd liao. x.x

Should i call him today ?
Im go tired & lazy.
From i come back until nw.
I still havent bath. LOL !

Hais.
Dunno wad to say nw le. :x

Im missing you. ):

2009-11-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

Baby, im really missing you alot & alot.
Every min every sec, im thinking abt you.
Thinking abt wad you are doing nw.
Sleep le mah.
Study le mah.
I cant stop myself to stop thinking abt you.

Let me :

Make you smile when you even dun want to smile.
Support you in everything you want to do.
Help you when you have fall down.
Treasure you as how you treasure me.
Leg for you to sleep when you are tired.
Shoulder for you to lean & cry on.
Give you everything tat you need.
Be behind you everytime.
A hug when you are sad & tired.
Drug for you to get addicted to it.

I realised tat i cant do this w/o you.
Will you allow me to be tgt wif you always & forever ?

iloveyou, My Dearest B.

Birthday, Chalet.

2009-11-06T15:50:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Gwen !

Back from chalet. :D

Although, 2D1N is short.
But we still enjoy ourselves.
And have fun.

Missed him badly on chalet.
Although, we still have tok on the fone.
But we are still missing each other.
Im sry tat my fwens scolded you.
But you enjoy toking to them on fone right. :D

Went to chalet.
PlayWalkEatSleep.
Sleep at 2am last night.
Very sleepy nw. :x
I didnt went to go swimming.
Because of some personal reasons.
Not i dunno how to swim. LOL !

Baby fallen down when he is rushing to sch on Wed.
I think so. :x
Cos he woke up late & have exam at 8.
I wish i am beside him.
Can help him apply medicine.

Fyi, baby.
I work at mac not for buying psp.
LOL !
I work for fun de. :D
I want you to plurk for me only.
Say me Crazy Mama Pig.
Den you ?
Crazy Papa Pig. :D

Dun feel lonely, k ?
Im always beside you.
Always & Forever.
Cute Die You ~

I realised tat i cant live w/o you nowadays.
I really need you.

Playing fb's Pet Society nw.
Lag Die Me.

I rmb wad you have tell me abt tat story thingy. :D
I dun have STM, k ?
Me and you de secret story. :D
iloveyou.

Audi lvl ! Abt Him.

2009-11-01T21:27:00.001+08:00

Chiong-ed audi for one whole day. Nw lvl 20 le. :D
Cheated in the FM using hack.
Den last 20 sec perfect x5.
Heng lorh.
I passed. :D
Tried 2 times.

Sms-ed him one whole day.
Call him for 30 min.
I told him he is my VIP.
He told me a very shocking ans.
LOL.
He say im his ***e.
He is jus so cute & sweet.
Aww. :]
Love Die Him. :x
I hope tat this is not a dream.
Cos i dun want to sleep & wake up anymore.
I want it to be real. :x

Tok to shihui a lot of craps in audi.
I know im noisy.
LOL !
Hahas. :D

Bored liao. Go play audi nw. :D
Waiting for his sms, den call him.
Next morning, 6am wake up call him.
Cyas. :D

Me & You.

2009-11-01T15:02:00.003+08:00

Ytd, tok on fone tgt wif him for 1 hours & 13 mins.
He asking me qns.
And i ans it lorh.
The qns is you **ve/**ke me ?
Cos he very paisei, i oso very paisei.
So i ans him 3dots.
Tok & tok.
Tok until i heard him go bath.
LOL ! Joker siol him. :x
Den he say he want check msg,
Check until hang my fone.
Den i dun care le.
Went to sleep.
LOL.
Woke up at 5.
Check msg,
Got 3 & all from him.
Reply one den go toliet & put back housefone,
Or ltr tio kbkp.
Aft tat go sms him my reasons.
7 msg long.
I was like lol-ing.
Aft tat went to sleep again.
Sleep until going 9.
Saw his sms, reply den go prepare to go out.
When i going out den i know tat he still sleeping.
Wad a pig. LOL.

Went to imm to eat breakfast.
Very full and mac got alot of ppl.
Cant find place to sit.
So go ljs walkwalk.
Saw Shihui & Kengwee.
Kengwee saw me & give me a very weird look.
Like very shock like tat.
Hahas.
Den go back to mac to eat breakfast.
Eat filet-o-fish, cos very full so eat slowly.
Den play the monopoly thingy.
Den win a apple pie.
Went to counter to take.
And saw manager.
He was like very shock like tat ?!
Den went walkwalk.
Sms pig.
Den he going tuition at his fwen house.
From 12 - 4pm.
SUPER LONG RIGHT ?
Wtfhzx lorh.
Miss him nw. ):
Still have 1 hour++ to go.

Going to work tmr le.
Happyhappy.
But nw i very tired.
Hais. I dunno wad to do.

To VIP :
I reallyreally want you.
Despo to have you.
But the problem is tat i scare i will lose you one day.
Cos a lot of girls like you.
Even im sad & jealous abt you.
I will not tell you.
Cos i want you to know tat im happy.
Im happy to have you.
Cos when im sad,
You still want to cheer me up & heal my heart.
I can forget him is because of you.
I really dun want to make you a replacement of him,
And hurt you as the way he hurt me.
Cos i really like you alot, you know ?
When im toking to you, i only can feel happy.
Im happy tgt with you.
Even if in the end, i cant have you.
Im still very happy to know you.
I told you i love you.
Love need trust & appreciate.
I trust you so even you have alot of girls like you or go out with girls.
I oso dun mind.
Cos i know you will not betray me.
You are a drug to me nw.
Drug tat make me get addicted to it.
I will make you get back wad you give me,
Care & happy.
Rather den get back nothing, it is not fair to you.
In the end, only
1 meaning, 3 words, 8 letters to tell you.
iloveyou.
Fyi, this is the 7 long msg tat i sms him.

Reject & New blogskin.

2009-10-31T20:01:00.001+08:00

Jus update blogskin.
:D
Happyhappy. :D
Nw jus finding links only.

Aft 4 hours,
He at last sms-ed me. ):
Nw he eating.

Sucessfully rejected Nicholas.
Hohos.
But sry for rejecting you. :x

Jiayous to KengWee, Samuel & WenCang.
For their retain test.
Better dun retain worh.
Cos i dun want to see you in my class next yr. :D

Back to blog. :D

2009-10-31T17:37:00.001+08:00

I know i long time bo update blog le.
Pls forgive me.
Cos im busy currently.
Busy chionging audi acc & working.
I will be very busy from 2nd Nov start.
Busy working, CCA, supple, homeworks & camps.

Something happen today.
A guy name call Nicholas asked me for RL stead.
But i cfm will not accept de.
Cos i only want him. :x
Hahas. :D
And going to update my template soon. :D
Change the background. :D
Hahas.

To Nicholas :
I think i should not accept you.
Cos you are younger den me.
And you live very far away from me.
I dunno why you like me.
But I still would not accept you. :x

To him :
Waited & waited for 3 hours.
For a reply.
You dun bother to reply my sms.
You tell me wad to do ?
Give up you ?
I really want you badly.
And i dunno how you felt abt me.
And ytd tat topic we tok at night.
I hope you can rmb.